John 14:1-7 St. Thomas, Apostle (July 3rd)

I don’t know

                and I’m scared

of what I don’t know

and where I haven’t been

My doubts come

to the surface of my mind

                                and sing in fear

                                of who I am

                and who

I don’t know who I am

Sing

with a trembling voice of humanity

a song of being lost

of not knowing

                and therefore

                                not wishing to find out

                                what this life

                called upon by this one we call

                Messiah              

                                is all about

Thank you

for echoing my fears in this world

for saying that which I feel

in

I don’t know

and leading me

                into new life

full of doubts

and faith