they believed and they doubted

Friday June 24th, Matthew 28, Doubts are the ants in the pants of faith, they keep it up and moving :16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. Dhooooooo!!! I just don’t get it. After all this, Jesus has his final moment with the disciples as he is about to ascend into heaven, looks into their eyes and see the dull luster of doubting. The English translation, “but some doubted” is more closely translated as, “they worshiped him and they doubted” indicating that it was not some, but all the disciples who had doubts. I take comfort in that. In the Gospels it is the Pharisees who are portrayed and always be sure of themselves, which is not the same as being right. In the midst of this Jesus left anyway and blessed them on their way. Perfection was not part of that day, or was it? For Jesus, perfection was not in covering all the bases so no point was left untouched but in covering all with blessings so that no one was left untouched. While Jesus was here, we looked to him. After the ascension, we have to look to one another. Perhaps, in Jesus’ scheme of things, that is perfection, to look to one another and take it one day at a time even with our doubts and once in a while glimpsing there a hint of the presence of Christ.